02:11 am. I can't sleep. There are things that keeps me on staying away from bed. I'm thinking of my family, the debts i have to settle, the things that i wish i could accomplish before, the chances that I should have seized immediately but because of thinking of myself before anything else led me to where I am now. I don't know where should I start or will I start again?

I wish there's someone I can share with all of these feelings but the saddest part of all this dilemma is that I'm afraid of opening up. Afraid that people whom I thought can understand me will change their perspective on me. Afraid for everyone to see that I am weak and telling me that I deserve all of this mess. Whoo!

Yes. I hope I could have someone...